about coveting

More about my prayer for last night. The thing I covet, is the opportunity to study again.

I really like what I'm studying now. The question is, how far should I indulge myself?

I (and many, I would think) call it an indulgence because I don't need it. It does nothing for my future career. It may do some good to my teaching methodology, but seriously, do I need to spend thousands of dollars to improve the way I teach?

But ... studying Korean makes me so, so, so, so happy. Is my happiness worth this much?

And it's not even about money. It's also about my relationships with everyone back at home. To commit to this doesn't only involve thousands of dollars (and tens of thousands worth of lost income), it also means I put my relationships on the line. Church, family, friends.

I don't know ... seriously. The more I see how studying here is paying off in big ways, and how it makes me so incandescently happy, the more I don't want to leave. All I know for now is to enjoy the moment. In September I'll have to return to Singapore anyway, and I'll definitely miss the Fall term. If I decide to return (for about 2 years to finish the course), the earliest would be January 2014. I have some 4 months to consider carefully.

Please pray along with me.